I feel like im lost in a transition whereby hope and trust is really important at the moment. If either one is lost, then its the end of the whole process. Using a guy-ish analogy, its like having a dick without the balls. For the first time in my life, i feel like i have treated my relationship in the worst way possible. I have made mistakes which i think are unjust and worthy of a beheading. Blame it on my mountain-high ego, i know that i could have done better in dealing with the situations i got myself into. I think its time for me to make things work and running like it was before and i know its gonna be hard but hey, for a woman who’s willing to give her all in this relationship, i will give my best too. I will make sure that she’ll feel that she’s the luckiest girl in the whole world again. Sounds cheesy but i think its worth the effort because honestly, she’s the best ive ever had and the best there ever will be :)